so, i've quite smoking like, i don't know, four times or something.
there was the first time: the halfass try that lasted for about three days (although i didn't admit to myself that i was smoking again for another six months or something, even though i steadily bummed cigarettes off of my coworkers everyday).
then the big time, back in 2002 when i went from being a pack and a half a day smoker to totally over and done using the patch (which i will recommend to each and everyone of you). and i didn't smoke again for a whole year, but i still wanted to and you know, i used to like to drink a lot and that doesn't always make for dandy decision making, so i started socially smoking. and i mean like one or two drags every month or two.
but then i was dating this girl that smoked and we liked to drink and smoke together and, well, it all went down hill. and one day i bought my own pack. for the first time in four years. i hated it! i hated me! i hated not being in control of this thing i hated doing to myself and my body!
i read half of this book one afternoon because the girl had it sitting around since she would always talk about quitting but never did anything to move forward. i only needed to read half. i immediately felt like i never, ever, ever wanted to smoke again.
this book is basically a big mind fuck. i know that it is. i knew it as i was reading it. but it didn't matter, because what it did was give me enough info and enough tools to have me stop, right then, that moment. and not smoke again for a long long time.
not the end of the story though. cuz obviously i started again, and i don't remember how or why or when, but i know i quit again seven months ago and have not looked back and know that this time it will stick because i'm still using what i learned from that book plus more (thanks yoga!). and this time i get it, what was in there, that i really don't want to smoke again and that i don't have to.
so if you really want that monkey off your back, this is a good place to start. you already know all the reasons you want to quit, but you'll learn new ones, and you'll learn ways to think about smoking and quitting, and most importantly, being a NONsmoker that will get your head screwed on straight without guilting you or telling you a bunch of lung cancer statistics or whatever.
and then when you're ready to make that big change, you'll make it. and you'll be done finally. and you can take a big deep breath of freedom.